5. hard

Verse.
Stuck in my mind. Pushing my pen on pad as I'm puffing the pine.
Feeling sick as Ebola patients my patiences is dying.
I feel it fleeting, I'm feeling as if I'm wasting my time.
I been waiting a while, since I waded in this water.
Now my waist up is dry. But it's rising and fast.
So I fall into fire but see the devil and dance.
He tryna give me the hands but Ima get higher tho.
Higher than a bitch in my car.
as I travel thru backwoods don't know where I are.
I don't know where I'm goin but Ima travel as far.
As this quarter tank will take me I just wanna be gone.
I don't want no one to save me.
I just pray to the Lord, tell my Poppy I'm sorry.
Tell my girl it's not her fault. I'm just venting is all.
Just a sickening thought. Fuck you niggas you rappers petty your passion is off.
Y'all just rapping to say you rap and it shows in your lines.
I just rap so I won't have to call my bitch on the side.
I call her Nina for short. She tryna spark up tonight.
She want me pass her the clip. She wanna blow my mind.
Don't play this song for my mom.
I'm seeing death all around. I'm only happy when I'm faded.
Drinking and driving don't know how the fuck I made it.
Ain't that how Dre died? and I just play with my life.
But Ima get higher tho.
High enough to shed some tears where my niggas can't see me.
Numb to the pain bottled up in the drank.
Waist deep like Tyrese until it covers my face.
Until I can't even breathe. Maybe I do need therapy.
I pray to Jesus for peace. I pray to Buddha for balance.
And every other deity. Cuz I dont know what to believe.
But I believe the reaper creeping up behind me soon.
Good grief I hope it's peace before I see you (ICU).

Hook.
Being happy gettin hard than a mufucker.
This shit gettin hard than a mufucker.
Waking up is gettin hard than a mufucker.
This shit gettin hard than a mufucker.
Love is hard. Hard than a mufucker.
This shit gettin hard than a mufucker.
Trust is hard. Hard than a mufucker.
This shit gettin hard than a mufucker.